Meltdown moments

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Well, we have done it. We are almost completely moved out of our house and are staying exclusively in the camper now. It has been bumpy in the first few days. Trivial things like power and water being hooked up correctly, etc. I can’t say I have responded well to it. Like I said before, I am that type A personality. When I push a button, flip a switch, whatever the case may be, I expect it to work. Needless to say, this has been challenging for me because of this. So, the little bumps in the road that are probably to be expected derail me. We will see how things unfold from here. The fact it has pretty much rained all week doesn’t help either.

 In any case here we are. For better or worse. I am trying hard to roll with it. Sometimes I don’t understand exactly WHAT is frustrating me. (which is frustrating in itself) Be it not having all the places for certain items figured out yet, or every little thing that is out of place making the camper look a mess, etc. I think right now I am just weary. My prayer is that this will get better as we go. I know the Lord stretches us through our challenges. Honestly, I feel a bit like a toddler on the verge of a tantrum sometimes. I get mad at myself for feeling that way! Maybe, just maybe, this can be a growth experience even beyond what I thought.

 I know being in the bullseye of Gods will for your living is invariably going to be out of your comfort zone. If it wasn’t we would never change and grow. This is a look in the mirror for all of us, but probably me the most. I think all the family would vote me as most likely to melt down in this process. Not a title I am happy to have, but it’s the truth. So here I am, taking a very deep breath, trying to screw my head back on straight, and adjust my horrible attitude. I am determined to press on, and benefit from this time. I keep reminding myself how this works out will be choice. Yes, it is a challenge, but it is a challenge that we can use to grow.

 We can view this as climbing a mountain. The journey can be tough but the view from the top is amazing. This is our mountain. I am standing on the hope we will come out of this stronger as a family, and that Don and I will come out of this stronger as husband and wife. Thank you all again for sharing in this with us!